uh jk. but i'm about to go to work.
I'm moving out with amber and randy.
in like 20 days to somewhere in dallas.
i think i want to go to hairschool.
then suddenly yesterday i had this huge doubt.
but also i was high.
but i realized i haven't cut or dyed hair in months. ever since i've been growing out my mohawk.
which i guess makes sense. but i used to live for that.
now i only think of dying my hair once a week.
but i bet if i dyed it. i'd get addicted again.
idk. i bet you make bank as a salon worker.
i just don't want to settle ever for a less than perfect life.
i want a loft. boyfriend. tattoos. everything. ah. i can't wait.
but should i go to school now?
so i'm never on here anymore.
its all about the myspace.com/mymorningcigarette.
yep. that is all.
Against me! november sixth!
ok if we do this whole austin thing I'm thinking we should all pitch in like what five dollars each and rent a hotel for four nights and get super drunk and cry to each other about how horrible are lives are. Cause this IS texas emo kids...duh.
this was a very serious post I hope you know. But I can pick anyone up on the way from...Dallas.
I love thinking back on those moments really worth living you know?
When youre having a super bad day and you think back on something truly euphoric it can make anything better.
Today I started playing fever and mirrors and it reminds me of being in austin and deciding I wanted to move there. Then that leads to me actually seeing Conor Oberst and being truly one of the happiest moments of my life. (sad but not from my point of view)
Some really shitty things can happen but knowing that there are more great things to come really makes life worth living.
I feel bad for those people that don't take chances. That just want to be safe. I'm about to make life altering decisions. If I choose the wrong thing I could end up in poverty for the rest of my life. Interesting right? I love having this much power over my life. Luckily I dont like drugs or expensive clothes. haha.
Yeah I'm trying to move out and I'm buying a new car. I don't want to end up screwing myself over, ya know? But it's exciting. I have to go buy the car at noon today. Hopefully I'm getting another oldsmobile. I love those cars. Then I won't feel so guilty for selling Roxanne. I can't wait to name my new car. heheheh ok i'm a dork. But this is exciting knowing these are the moments that shape your life.
So it's true the trick is complete youve become everything you said you never would be...youre a fool...youre a FOOL!
LAST PERSON WHO
x. Slept in your bed: brandon and millie or megan or me.
x. Saw you cry: my mom
x. Made you cry: my mom
x. You shared a drink with: megan at wendy's earlier
x. You went to the movies with: my mom
x. You went to the mall with: megan we guy shop
x. Yelled at you: megan had a rude tone with me...lol...no maybe nick.
x. Sent you an email: myspace
HAVE YOU EVER..
x. Said "I Love You" and meant it?: of course
x. Gotten in a fight with your pet: no
x. Been to California: yes
x. Been to Hawaii: no
x. Been to Mexico: no
x. Been to China: no
x. Been to Canada: no
x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day?: not that i can remember
x. Wish you were the opposite sex: yes it'd be cool to have a penis for a day
x. Had an imaginary friend: nope...i had a brother
x. Do you have a crush on someone: no i hate boys for the most part.
x. What book are you reading now: nothing...don't have enough money to get a book.darn cigarettes
x. Worst feeling in the world: wanting to kill yourself...
x. Future son`s name: johnny
x. Future Daughter`s name: sierra
x. Do you sleep with stuffed animals: last night bugs bunny i hear
x. What`s under your bed: torn up notes from 11th grade
x. Favourite sport to watch: volleyball or basketball
x. Siblings: my rad brother jeff
x. College plans: beauty school i'm thinking...or business school actually both
x. Boyfriend/Girlfriend: i fucking wish
current music: Sugarcult - memory (acoustic)
FIRST NAME: Rachael
NICKNAMES: Rae, Twist
ADDRESS: Royse City, Texas.
GRADE: hell if I know
LIVING SITUATION: I just got kicked out of our apartment so I'm back at home with the mother.
HAIR COLOR: Blonde right now.
HAIR STYLE: It's wavy but I straighten it.
HAIR LENGTH: above the shoulders and below the ear
EYE COLOR: blue grey.
EYEGLASSES OR CONTACTS: contacts.
SHOE SIZE: 9
COLOR: black red and green
RELATIVE: my aunt beverly!
TV SHOW: Once and Again, Popular, Real World, Degrassi, and Daria!.
CD: Anything by Bright Eyes.
MOVIE: Grind makes me laugh like no other, Princess Bride, Fletch.
BAND OR GROUP: Bright Eyes. and generation X
FOOD: mashed potatoes...its a good filler
SCHOOL SUBJECT: history
GIRL NAME: Sierra and Pixie
BOY NAME: Johnny
ICE CREAM: Vanilla!
VACATION PLACE: Austin, Texas. duh...or Dallas...hell yeah I vacation in my backyard!
MUSIC: rock n roll man yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! haha no um 77, garage rock, power pop, 80's WHATever
TV STATION: WB 33
GUM: icebreakers. mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
WEATHER: fall, and summer
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: yes
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: eating too damn much
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: hell no. we hate each other.
SLEEP WITH A STUFFED ANIMAL?: i sleep with my cellphone.
LIKE TO DRIVE?: yes i fucking love it! yeah!
TYPE WITH FINGERS ON THE RIGHT KEYS?: yes.
DRINK?: not necessary too often
ANY OTHER DRUGS?: say no to las drogas!
KNOW ANYONE WHO DRINKS UNDERAGE: im one of them. STUPiD!
~DOES DRUGS: yeahhh
~LOST THEIR VIRIGINITY: i hope so.
~WORSHIPS THE DEVIL: noooo or else i wouldn't be their friend ya know?
BROKEN THE LAW: yes plenty of times.
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: yeahhh
EVER CHEATED ON A TEST: no...well its not cheatin in my book.
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: yes but not by myself.
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: yes like for a whole semester
PEED IN THE SHOWER/BATH: ew thast gross.
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: nahhh it takes alot for me to sleep.
~ IN CLASS: once while i was drunk at lakeview...then i woke up so creeped out that i was snoring.
GONE TO CHURCH: yes
READ THE BIBLE: yes
BEEN IN A FIGHT?: yeahhh
STAYED HOME ON THE WEEKENDS?: unfortunately
BEEN IN THE HOSPITAL: um when i was born.
~IN A SCHOOL PLAY: oh no.
WENT SWIMMING IN THE OCEAN: yes yes
CRIED IN PUBLIC: Yeah ive cried twice in public when i was really wasted.
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: Yes.
---Which is better?---
HUGGING OR KISSING: kissing, what the fuck i dont want no damn hug....shiiiiiiiitttttttt
MUD WRESTLING OR JELLO WRESTLING: jello makes me think of amber's mom!
WHITE MILK OR CHOCOLATE MILK: chocolate!
DEAFNESS OR BLINDNESS: deafness
SANDALS OR SHOES: shoes.
PEPSI OR COKE: coke.
CD OR TAPE: CD
RAIN, SUN OR SNOW: sun.
PEN OR PENCIL: pen
VANILLIA OR CHOCOLATE: vanilla.
BLACK OR WHITE: black.
---When/what was the last...---
THING YOU PURCHASED: some hashbrowns from Denny's.
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: Daria.
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER:? The Perfect Man
TIME YOU WERE GROUNDED: Yesterday...I told my mom to kick me out like whoa
WORDS YOU SAID: What? okay bye!
WORDS YOU TYPED: okay bye!
PHONE NUMBER YOU CALLED: Mandys well I put it in my phone to give to clay.
PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE: my mom
THING YOU ATE: crackers.
THING YOU DRANK: water.
SONG YOU HEARD: Rush Rush (Give me YEYO!) by Debbie Harry.... I love dancing to that song
PERSON YOU SAW: my bro jeff
PERSON YOU HUGGED: Natasha
PERSON WHO SENT AN IM: Brandi.
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER: a couple days ago from the bank if that counts
YOU GOT E-MAIL: Today.
TIME YOU CRIED: two nights ago.
BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND: fuck i wish.
DO YOU LOVE HIM OR HER?: if i had one i prob would.
VIRGINITY EXISTANT: nope.
WHO WAS YOUR FIRST CRUSH?:Jeremy Goodgion...hehe he was dreamy...now he's a druggie
CURRENT CRUSH: this total asshole who doesnt see me more than just a friend. how fucking depressing. ha hilarious i didn't even have to change the wording
BEEN HURT?: everyday..jk i'm not that sensitive...i really don't give a shit about anything anymore!
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: so many things I could regret but...really. the list would be endless so ...I just don't care to regret it truly.
WHAT WOULD YOUR DREAM DATE BE LIKE?: A guy picks me up in his car and opens the door for me. Then he takes me to an acoustic show at Emo's then takes me on a moonlit walk to the lake. Then we get really drunk and We go back to his apartment where I'm really drunk and he tells me he really cares about me and loves me more than he's loved anyone else in his whole life and wants me to move in. And he has a really cute beard and is the nicest guy I've ever met and we fall in love and get married and go to shows everynight...and he takes care of me. ahhhhhhh...
HAVE YOU EVER SAID "I LOVE YOU" AND MEANT IT?: yes, 100%
CHEATED ON SOMEONE: yeah i've been stupid and i've been drunk.
ROLLERCOASTERS -DEADLY OR EXCITING?: boring...doesn't do anything for me. i get more scared driving with natasha down Greenville ave.
WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED AND IMPORTANT POSSESSION?: like if my house was burning down what would I grab? hmmm....I could really live without anything but I know the first thing i'd grab would be my contact shit. haha I love my contacts. Then maybe my concert tshirts...oh my pictures those are important.
WHEN YOU WAKE UP, YOU: ask for five more minutes then wake up and act normal...maybe a little drunk.
YOUR MOUSE PAD HAS ON IT: i drew all over it. it says incubus and eve 6 i think
WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?:lots of posters and thingies.
WHAT DO YOU WEAR TO BED?: whatever.
THINKING OF RIGHT NOW: i'm pretty fucking bored...and i wish that that perfect date thing would come true.
WHAT DO YOU DO THAT REALLY PISSES OFF YOUR FRIENDS?:drugs...idk...nothing really...that i'm aware of...
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: being with a guy that likes me as much as i like him and being drunk...all at the same time.
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET? maybe Rilo Kiley or Stray Cats.
WHAT KIND OF CAR DO YOU WANT?: a luxury car...only newer and dependable.
DO YOU CONSIDER YOURSELF ATTRACTIVE?: i suppose. but i must not be cause i aint getting any boys. boo!
---Your thoughts on...---
TEENAGE SMOKING: yeah i don't care about other kids but i do it.
EATING DISORDERS: wish i had one.
RAP: i listen to it.
DREAMS: they creep me out and i want to know what they mean!
TRUE LOVE: i love love. wish i had some right now
WORSE FEELING IN THE WORLD: heartbreak. god.!
SPICE GIRLS: are u fucking kidding me, what kinda of question is this, uh POSH SPICE FOR LIFE FUCKERS!!!!!!!!!! COme on Come on!
RAPE: i know a couple kids that have gotten raped and i've been taken advantage of and i've taken advantage of guys...ok don't know where that was going
SUICIDE: doesn't solve anything.
SELF-MUTILATION: we all hurt ourselves some of the time.
its a holiday for a hangin'
I was just looking over my court papers...If I don't finish my community service in time I'll be put in jail for a long time til' I pay my tickets and 100 dollars a day for every day I'm in jail.
That would suck.
Girl: hey baby i want to show you....
Boy: ( cutting her off ) ugh i'm so mad
Girl: why? whats wrong ?
Boy: ugh everything
Girl: explain baby
Boy: just lost a championship game,
parents flipped out on me for no reason,
and im catching a cold
Girl: well hey there will always be other games,
you know ill take care of you when your sick,
what your parents flip about ?
Boy: they are making me pay them for a car repair
Girl: is it alot of money
Boy: no it just sucks
Boy: but hey i dont feel well im going to go lay down
Girl: wait i want to give you some...
Boy: cant it wait til tommorow ?
Girl: yeah sure
2 hours later a friend of hers asks her to go for a drive ...she goes.....
her friend swerved to avoid a truck....hitting a tree instead
her friend was killed instantly....shes in critical condition
This is the conversation between her sister and her boyfriend
Sister: omg ( crying )
Boy: what? whats wrong ?
Sister: my sister...your gf was involved in a major car wreck
Boy: is she ok ? ?????
Sister: shes in critical condition
Boy: i'll be there in 10 minutes
He shows up to the hospital room ...standing outside the door
going over the last conversation in his mind over and over as he
heard the machines beep and beep and breathing tubes pump
Boy: she wanted to give me something or tell me something
Girls mom: yeah this...
it was an envelope smelling like she did sealed with a kiss in lipstick
he opened it.....
it said ..... your everything to me....i love you with everything i am
and everything i have...i want to spend the rest of my life with you
sealed in it was a ripped movie ticket from the first movie they went to
and the first picture they took together
he kissed the picture as a tear fell from his face onto the picture
it looked as if in the picture she was crying
then the machines flatlined....3 minutes later she was pronounced dead
If you have any heart...any soul...or want to be happy you will repost this.
if you care for someone ...do not let something like this ever happen
Post this in the next 200 seconds and you WILL have THE best
day of your life THIS SATURDAY. You're number one *love* Will
either kiss you, ask you out, or call you or better. If
you break this chain you will have a lousy day on Saturday