upyours_cunt (upyours_cunt) wrote,

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I'm slipping in between you and your big dreams...

This memorial day weekend was fun! Friday I went to deep ellum and worked at the door with Megan and made twenty dollars in tips (that doesn't sound good but it was for just serving water!). Then we went to the practicing studio with the band The Background and I went to sleep in my car. Then I woke up at five with Megan to go to community service...I think...was that whoa...that seems like it was today but yeah that was saturday morning. But it started raining. Then on the way home I got soooo lost. It was crazy...I was soo tired I thought east of Garland was Garland...yeah that's how tired I was...it didn't even make sense...I ended up in Richardson somehow. I didn't wake up Megan though...which was even funnier because she didn't even know we got lost til' we were home. Then Sunday we went to church and then to the practicing hall to ask for prices on the place. No one was there on a sunday sadly. So we went to Black Eyed Pea to get a job. Mehhh it might work out or something. Who knows. Then I went to her house and cut and dyed her hair. It's wayyy hot! Yes yes! Then I came home and played with my kitters and talked to Kylie about how I wanted her to tell josh I was sorry for being horrible but there were reasons behind it like being bitter and really hurt. I shouldn't of been with him under those conditions. They're still together though. I wonder why I'm never good enough to be in a real relationship. It kills me that I ruin everything good in my life. But I don't want to start a new relationship because I'm too damn scared. I just want to go back to old relationships and try to fix them because atleast I know that person and knowing another person...is just too hard and too much work and I'll just fail them too. I don't want to go through that for the rest of my life. I just want someone to make me happy and for once I want to make someone else happy too. It kills me that I don't...You understand right?

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